Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. As most of you know we lost our baby yesterday at 11 weeks 3 days. Clearly this has been very hard to except.
The doctors we encountered yesterday had a few bits of expertise to offer that make things a little better. When the er doctor broke the news to us he said that sometimes something is wrong with the cromosomes and this is nature's way of saying that something was wrong and it is better it happen now then when we have a full grown baby that would not survive birth.
Our ob gyn, who I believe is a God send, told us that 20% of all known pregnancies end this way and he said if you think about it there is a sperm and an egg that come together and form a new human being and the whole process is so complicated it is a miracle that it works 80% of the time. He also said that this happening does not necessarily mean we will have any trouble trying again and we should be just like anyone else starting with a clean slate.
All that being said, the thing that has lifted my spirits the most is is realizing how many people care about my husband and I enoughto keep us in their thoughts and prayers. Yesterday morning was very difficult, but after I got home from the hospital I was mostly fine. I think it was a combination of the drugs (as long as I'm being honest) and all of the people keeping positive thoughts for us. I cannot tell you enough how much that means to us and how good it feels to know we have such wonderful friends and family.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Thank You All
Friday, January 9, 2009
Can you tell it is Friday afternoon?
A pic of my desk. Suprisingly, this small piece of my life says a lot
about me. I like polka dots, I am cutting back on caffine, my hands
are drying, and my job would bore 9.9 out of 10 of you
Random shot
provide you with this silly shot. Travis thought he would be funny
when taking pictures of the apron and get a butt shot. You also get to
see him wanted picture in the back, and if you look real close you can
see that I still have Christmas décor up
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Three Thoughtful Christmas Gifts
I'm so sorry you are getting a crappy picture but I promised you a
shot of this blanket and this was all I got before we left. I'll
update with a new one when I get home from gorging myself on unlimited
popcorn.
Three Thoughtful Christmas Gifts
I wanted to put these all in one post but we're going to the movies
and I don't think I'll have time to do it tonight so this is what you
get. The two aprons were made by my lovely, wonderful mother and the
blanket by my mother in law and father in law, who was sure to point
out it caused a lot of hand cramping. That just makes it all the more
special, right?
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Twofer Tuesday
Today was such a great day I decided it was worthy of two posts in one day. In general it was just a regular day but I had two particularly good things happen.
First, my company has this program over the holidays called Maintain Don't Gain. You weigh in before Thanksgiving and again after the New Year and if you have not gained any weight you get a long sleeve t-shirt. I find it awfully funny that a long sleeve is all it takes to motivate people but hey, whatever works. Anyway, so I weighed in today feeling pretty good until Ms. Exercise told me I was up 2 lbs. Totally sucks since I was pretty sure I lost. Well she tells me the number and I wasn't up 2, I was down 8! Totally the morning sickness's doing (which by the way morning sickness is one of the biggest misnomers known to man). So I am not taking and credit and I confessed I cheated to Ms Exercise but still, I got my t-shirt none the less.
Oh as a bonus (this isn't #2) I got to have a lunch I was really craving, I was able to eat most of it, AND for some reason I cannot explain it was half off. Score!
Nextly (shout out Kanye), I had my review today. For me, reviews are nerve wrecking. I get so nervous before even a casual quarterly review that I feel like I am going to be sick. Besides that, I have had some problems with my job over the last couple of years that I have been there. Despite my problems, I feel like I am a pretty good employee, always doing what is expected of me. Well last year my review was so terrible that I really thought by the way it sounded I should have been fired, written up at best. There were phrases in it like "VA refuses to do this" and "VA continues to make this mistake", all of which I felt were completely inaccurate and shocking. Especially since I had asked my manager for feedback through out the year and I felt I was improving on the items in which he had given me constructive criticism.
Well, to the good news. My review this year was fantastic. I almost started to cry because the things my boss said in it were so full of praise. She also told me technically I am ready for a promotion, they just need to make sure I can handle more responsibility, which I actually really want, and get a few things approved by the higher ups.
I sure was feeling good about myself today.
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